I wasn't sure if I would blog about this. To be honest, it's something I have thought about off and on for a few years. This will come as shocking to many...especially to you Cyndi. Trust me when I say, I have shared this with very few people (Joey, my mom, my classroom aide). I have not kept this secret for any reason. I just choose to not talk about it.
Ok here goes...I have been thinking seriously about becoming a surrogate mother. Why?! Well...I really don't know why to be honest. Maybe God plants these thoughts into our hearts. All I can tell you is this...I'm seriously thinking about this. So much so that I have become a member of a surrogate mother website. I have even received a reply from someone in central Florida who is looking for a surrogate.
So what does this mean? Well, basically my body would be a place for someone else's baby to grow. This would not be my baby. I would provide the womb, the nurturing, and the "intended parents" with a baby they couldn't have conceived on their own. Some surrogates allow for the intended parents to use their (mine) egg, but the sperm would come from the "intended father". So technically, this baby would genetically be half mine. I couldn't do that. But I would allow a fertilized egg (not my egg) to be transplanted in me in hopes that the result would be....well a baby.
I have thought about this over and over. I have not prayed deeply about it though...not yet anyway. There is a chance that women from the surrogate mother website are reading this, so I have to make sure I'm completely honest about my thoughts. I actually just learned last night about how many surrogates allow the intended parents to use their egg. So I was a bit discouraged about that. I would love to help someone, but I can't give them a baby that is partially mine. So that's why I would do this if the egg was donated. I wouldn't want the baby genetically tied to me in any way. Does this make sense?
On the website, I have explained that I am currently pregnant, and how I wouldn't be ready until January 2010. So I truly have given this alot of thought. But I have not researched it extensively. I posted my info page before learning about the whole "my egg but your sperm" part of it all. And I have to say again...I couldn't do that, I just couldn't do it.
Lastly, for those of you that know me, you know that my intentions would not be based on a "financial gain". But knowing that someone cannot have a child breaks my heart after loving Will the way I do. What if I couldn't have conceived Will? What if a surrogate had carried him for me? What if a surrogate had carried your child for you? Would you not be greatful?
Monday, March 23, 2009
Monday, March 16, 2009
My baby is 3!
Last Monday, March 9th, my baby boy turned 3. I took Monday off to be with him, and we had such a wonderful day together. We slept in till 9am, then went to the Lady Lake Park, then to Chick-Fil-A, and later that evening we went to "Jump in Joey's" in Clermont. If you have never been there, I highly recommend it. It's basically an indoor bounce house. It's incredibly clean with a laid back atmosphere, and the staff was super friendly. Parents can sit back in the nice wicker furniture while their children play their hearts out. I'm sure it's packed on the weekends, so I recommend a week night. My little man was pooped when we got home!
This past Saturday (March 14) we actually celebrated Will's party at Lake Okahumpka Park. He had so much fun! We rented a bounce house for the kids, which was great! I tend to like the idea of a laid back party. Some mothers go all out and plan activities and games. Not me! I let the kids play while the adults enjoyed each others company. I just want the kids to be "free" and run and play as they wished. I may do games as Will gets older...
If you are reading this and you have a child Will's age, please do not get offended if I didn't invite you to his party. We basically had family, and a few friends. Will has 3 boys that he is very close to, so we invited those 3 along with their families. Other than that, it was all family. We really tried to stay around 30 people since we were feeding them. It's so easy to spend hundreds of dollars on a party! I'm sure you are all shaking your heads in agreement right now!
Before I show you party pictures, I have to take the time to tell you about Will's birthday cake! I was telling my friend (the one who made the cake) that I wanted a big #3 cake, and I wanted it red and black (Bulldog colors of course). While talking to her, Will says "Mommy I want a spongebob cake". I looked at my friend and said..."Okay so I was saying, I want a big #3 cake...." Later in the day, Will said (at least 3 times) that he wanted a spongebob cake. First of all, Will doesn't watch spongebob, has no clothing or toys with spongebob...yet he was insistent on a spongebob cake! So yes...he had a spongebob cake...but NO spongebob decorations I assure you! If you ever need a cake made, please let me know! My friend Robin doesn't even do this for a living! Her cake was a work of art, and tasted like heaven! Her prices are unbeatable, and I assure you, you will not be disappointed!
This past Saturday (March 14) we actually celebrated Will's party at Lake Okahumpka Park. He had so much fun! We rented a bounce house for the kids, which was great! I tend to like the idea of a laid back party. Some mothers go all out and plan activities and games. Not me! I let the kids play while the adults enjoyed each others company. I just want the kids to be "free" and run and play as they wished. I may do games as Will gets older...
If you are reading this and you have a child Will's age, please do not get offended if I didn't invite you to his party. We basically had family, and a few friends. Will has 3 boys that he is very close to, so we invited those 3 along with their families. Other than that, it was all family. We really tried to stay around 30 people since we were feeding them. It's so easy to spend hundreds of dollars on a party! I'm sure you are all shaking your heads in agreement right now!
Before I show you party pictures, I have to take the time to tell you about Will's birthday cake! I was telling my friend (the one who made the cake) that I wanted a big #3 cake, and I wanted it red and black (Bulldog colors of course). While talking to her, Will says "Mommy I want a spongebob cake". I looked at my friend and said..."Okay so I was saying, I want a big #3 cake...." Later in the day, Will said (at least 3 times) that he wanted a spongebob cake. First of all, Will doesn't watch spongebob, has no clothing or toys with spongebob...yet he was insistent on a spongebob cake! So yes...he had a spongebob cake...but NO spongebob decorations I assure you! If you ever need a cake made, please let me know! My friend Robin doesn't even do this for a living! Her cake was a work of art, and tasted like heaven! Her prices are unbeatable, and I assure you, you will not be disappointed!
Thursday, February 26, 2009
99% Sure!
Well, the anticipation has finally come to an end! Joey and I can now call our little man by name. Westin Samual decided to finally show off his stuff yesterday for Dr. Moffett and for his eager parents. We are thrilled to know that we will have 2 boys to raise that hopefully will be the best of friends. They will be 3 years and 4 months apart in age, which is a nice age difference. Now I can pray for "him" and pray blessings on his precious little life. So many people (work friends and family) seem so disappointed that we aren't having a girl. But from the beginning, it never mattered to me. Would I have loved a girl? Yes, of course. But I will equally love and adore this little boy. God has chosen to bless me with boys, and I accept that blessing with my whole heart. We will call him "Wes"...our precious boys...Will and Wes!
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
This is becoming funny....
On Monday, Joey and I went to my monthly check-up and I saw Dr. Moffett. I made it known that we didn't know the sex of the baby, and how the tech said girl. Moffett assured me, we would find out that day.
At first the baby had it's knees together, and feet tucked under it's bottom. Basically my child was in the worst possible position when trying to determine the sex. The baby opened it's legs and Moffett said, "I think that's a boy". What?! A boy?! I don't say that because I am disappointed...I am just confused. It's either a boy, or it's a girl...how hard can that be, right?!
Well, Moffett tried to get the baby to move. At one time, when the legs were open, the babys fingers were right in the spot we needed to look. Moffett said, "Well that's a sure sign that's it's a boy". Actually, Moffett only had 2 quick looks at my little one's private (that's sounds funny). And both times he felt pretty sure he saw boy parts. But he did say for us not to paint the room blue just yet.
So yes...the mystery continues. But to be honest, I do think Moffett will be right. I really do think I saw boy parts too, but the baby kept moving right when we thought we had a good view. My baby just wants to surprise us I guess :)
The good news is, Moffett is letting me come back next Wednesday for a quick ultrasound so I don't have to wait a whole month. Maybe then, I will be able to tell you for sure if we are expecting a boy...or girl.
At first the baby had it's knees together, and feet tucked under it's bottom. Basically my child was in the worst possible position when trying to determine the sex. The baby opened it's legs and Moffett said, "I think that's a boy". What?! A boy?! I don't say that because I am disappointed...I am just confused. It's either a boy, or it's a girl...how hard can that be, right?!
Well, Moffett tried to get the baby to move. At one time, when the legs were open, the babys fingers were right in the spot we needed to look. Moffett said, "Well that's a sure sign that's it's a boy". Actually, Moffett only had 2 quick looks at my little one's private (that's sounds funny). And both times he felt pretty sure he saw boy parts. But he did say for us not to paint the room blue just yet.
So yes...the mystery continues. But to be honest, I do think Moffett will be right. I really do think I saw boy parts too, but the baby kept moving right when we thought we had a good view. My baby just wants to surprise us I guess :)
The good news is, Moffett is letting me come back next Wednesday for a quick ultrasound so I don't have to wait a whole month. Maybe then, I will be able to tell you for sure if we are expecting a boy...or girl.
Thursday, February 5, 2009
We are having a.........
BABY!!!! Woohoo! That much we do know! But what we don't know is the sex of the baby. Is this child being stubborn in the womb? What does that mean for our future??? Yikes!
Actually, the ultrasound at Lake Medical Imaging went great. Everything about our baby looked just the way it should at this point...praise God! I have never cared if this baby was a boy or girl...I have just prayed healthy, and thriving. And "she" is. Did I just say "she"...well technically I don't truly know the sex of the baby...but the tech said she was going with a girl as her choice. The unbilical cord was lying perfectly between the baby's legs, making it hard to determine the sex. A few times the cord moved away slightly, but the tech still found it hard to get a real good view. She thought she saw girl parts, but was only 70% certain. As the tech walked me out of the room, she apologized and said "I feel defeated with this one".
So Joey and I don't want to think girl until we are certain. My next appt. with Dr. Moffitt is Monday February 16, which is less than 2 weeks away. I am hoping I will get a more definite answer on that visit...fingers crossed.
Well, I am feeling great now and have started "nesting" around the house. My house looks like the inside was hit by a hurricane...I am hoping to get things in order soon. We are changing Will's room and so far it looks real cool. Once it's done, I will take pics to share with you.
Well, I guess you will hear from me soon...maybe I will have better luck.
Actually, the ultrasound at Lake Medical Imaging went great. Everything about our baby looked just the way it should at this point...praise God! I have never cared if this baby was a boy or girl...I have just prayed healthy, and thriving. And "she" is. Did I just say "she"...well technically I don't truly know the sex of the baby...but the tech said she was going with a girl as her choice. The unbilical cord was lying perfectly between the baby's legs, making it hard to determine the sex. A few times the cord moved away slightly, but the tech still found it hard to get a real good view. She thought she saw girl parts, but was only 70% certain. As the tech walked me out of the room, she apologized and said "I feel defeated with this one".
So Joey and I don't want to think girl until we are certain. My next appt. with Dr. Moffitt is Monday February 16, which is less than 2 weeks away. I am hoping I will get a more definite answer on that visit...fingers crossed.
Well, I am feeling great now and have started "nesting" around the house. My house looks like the inside was hit by a hurricane...I am hoping to get things in order soon. We are changing Will's room and so far it looks real cool. Once it's done, I will take pics to share with you.
Well, I guess you will hear from me soon...maybe I will have better luck.
Sunday, February 1, 2009
02-02-02
Tomorrow, February 2nd, Joey and I will celebrate 7 years of marriage. We were married on 02/02/02. I use to always say that I wanted to get married on Valentine's Day, but Valentine's Day was not on a Saturday in the year 2002.
Actually, there is a little history in the date we chose. I am funny with numbers, I count everything, and I am pretty good in math. So numbers are just kinda my thing. So here goes:
The number 8 in the bible represents "New Beginnings".
We were married on 02/02/2002 (Add up all the 2's and you get 8)
We were married at 5:30 (5 and 3 makes 8)
We dated for 8 years before we married
Our current home which is also our first home has the address 4642 (4+4) (6+2)
We live on County Road 116 (8)
The difference in our age is 20 months, 2 weeks, 2 days, and 2 hours (all 2's = 8)
The first movie we saw together was "8 Seconds"
The last movie we saw (in a theater) was "8 Below"
So now you think I'm weird right!!! Or you are thinking...man they never go to the movies! 8 seconds came out in 2006...OMG...that too equals 8!! Not planned I promise!
There are many more significant numbers that equal 8, but I can't seem to think of them. I'm sure you don't mind at this point :)
The past 7 years have been wonderful. I know without a doubt that Joey is God's "perfect will" for me. I have never doubted. Joey is my very best friend and is the most amazing husband and father. He is caring, thoughtful, considerate, and passionate about the things he believes in. He is overall a wonderful man. When I was a young girl, I prayed for one thing in regards to finding a husband...I prayed that God would bless me with a man that loved me as much as I loved him. If the love is there equally, all the other stuff falls into place. Thank you God for blessing me with a wonderful husband...I love him more today than I did 7 years ago.
Tomorrow night we are going to the Cheesecake factory. It's our favorite! We had planned on going to the beach this weekend but the Super Bowl messed up that plan. We like to go to the beaches in that area (Treasure Island in particular) but everything was booked with the Super Bowl being in Tampa...and the prices to stay were rediculous anyway! So we have decided to go away Valentine weekend instead...just me and Joey. I am really looking forward to it.
Well, you will hear from me again this week because we find out what we are having on Wednesday!!! I can't wait to find out, and tell you!
PS I consider the song playing "our song". This was also our "first dance song".
I love you Joey!!!!! Happy Anniversary!!!
Actually, there is a little history in the date we chose. I am funny with numbers, I count everything, and I am pretty good in math. So numbers are just kinda my thing. So here goes:
The number 8 in the bible represents "New Beginnings".
We were married on 02/02/2002 (Add up all the 2's and you get 8)
We were married at 5:30 (5 and 3 makes 8)
We dated for 8 years before we married
Our current home which is also our first home has the address 4642 (4+4) (6+2)
We live on County Road 116 (8)
The difference in our age is 20 months, 2 weeks, 2 days, and 2 hours (all 2's = 8)
The first movie we saw together was "8 Seconds"
The last movie we saw (in a theater) was "8 Below"
So now you think I'm weird right!!! Or you are thinking...man they never go to the movies! 8 seconds came out in 2006...OMG...that too equals 8!! Not planned I promise!
There are many more significant numbers that equal 8, but I can't seem to think of them. I'm sure you don't mind at this point :)
The past 7 years have been wonderful. I know without a doubt that Joey is God's "perfect will" for me. I have never doubted. Joey is my very best friend and is the most amazing husband and father. He is caring, thoughtful, considerate, and passionate about the things he believes in. He is overall a wonderful man. When I was a young girl, I prayed for one thing in regards to finding a husband...I prayed that God would bless me with a man that loved me as much as I loved him. If the love is there equally, all the other stuff falls into place. Thank you God for blessing me with a wonderful husband...I love him more today than I did 7 years ago.
Tomorrow night we are going to the Cheesecake factory. It's our favorite! We had planned on going to the beach this weekend but the Super Bowl messed up that plan. We like to go to the beaches in that area (Treasure Island in particular) but everything was booked with the Super Bowl being in Tampa...and the prices to stay were rediculous anyway! So we have decided to go away Valentine weekend instead...just me and Joey. I am really looking forward to it.
Well, you will hear from me again this week because we find out what we are having on Wednesday!!! I can't wait to find out, and tell you!
PS I consider the song playing "our song". This was also our "first dance song".
I love you Joey!!!!! Happy Anniversary!!!
Sunday, January 25, 2009
Quick Update
I just want to let you all know that I did not find out the sex of the baby when I went to my most recent check-up. Dr. Helms had a great view of the area, but for some reason he didn't feel confident about giving me an answer. I think the baby's hand was obstructing his view. But I go back Wednesday Feb. 4th for my ultra sound at Lake Medical Imaging. I am certain I will find out then. I am anxious to know! So far everything else looks great!
Please keep these expecting mothers in your prayers: Natalie Johnson, Sara Washburn, Jennifer Russ, Chrissy Reams, Amanda Gray, Krista Fay, and Wendy Craig. I apologize if I am missing anyone, let me know if I am.
PS-Tomorrow (January 26) is Cyndi's birthday! Happy Birthday Cyndi, I love you!!
Please keep these expecting mothers in your prayers: Natalie Johnson, Sara Washburn, Jennifer Russ, Chrissy Reams, Amanda Gray, Krista Fay, and Wendy Craig. I apologize if I am missing anyone, let me know if I am.
PS-Tomorrow (January 26) is Cyndi's birthday! Happy Birthday Cyndi, I love you!!
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